Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Boxtops

I collect boxtops! When I see someone throwing away cereal or anything else with them I grab them off the box. When they bring snacks in to work, I pick them up and collect them. My wife can vouch that they are always falling out of my pockets or wallet or car or pretty much anything of mine.What I don't understand is why people throw them away. I don't have anyone specific that I usually give them to, but I collect them anyway. I have given them to friends with siblings and now my boss with kids. His kids love me for getting them a pizza party or something.

I would say in the about 2 years I have been collecting them I have collected and given at least $50 worth of boxtops. I know that isn't too much, but if everyone did the same thing, schools would have enough money to buy supplies. I know I sound like some depression aged person in saving things before throwing them away, but people, Stop Being Lazy, stop being unobservant and just save them. There are always kids who want them, even if you don't know any. If all else fails just go to an elementary school and donate them, or volunteer with some kids, they could use the support.

Final message: Save boxtops, be observant and love children.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

I am getting married in the morning.

I invited most everyone on Facebook, but if you want to come, fill out this form.

I am engaged and going to get married really, really soon. 15 August 2013 to be exact. Most people will wonder what the crazy I am doing, getting married in less than a month after getting engaged, well here is the story. I have been working on this for a while, it just hasn't felt complete, so I apologize for the length.

Let me just preface this whole story by saying Celeste is a saint.

In June Celeste and I were at a point where we were not progressing in life. We had been at the point for  a while so we decided to make a choice, get married or break up. I think for most people that is a really easy question, but for me I wasn't sure. I took some time, wrote in my journal, fought some doubts away then went to Celeste and said "Let's get married." Either that day or the next we decided a date and a temple and started some planning.

This shouldn't have been as huge a deal. We have now been dating for over a year and a half and we were almost dating for a few months before that. When it comes to knowing each other we know each other very well, and have had to work through so much together. The problem has been my self esteem.

Over the last year, I have had a few problems. I have had struggles in school, relationships and more. The worst part was when I was in a depression. I didn't have myself tested so I don't know if it was a real depression, so sorry to those that actually struggle with it, but I had it as much as I could. I didn't know how to handle my feeling so I turned them off. I had the worst time sleeping every night, because going to bed meant I had to face the next day. I was never suicidal or anything, was just lost and every day was kind of hard. It really took me down in school and life and I left me blank. I didn't realize it had happened till I started to come out of it. I reconciled what I was afraid of with my feelings so I was able to start healing.

Like I said, Celeste is a saint. For some reason she stuck with me when I was in a really low place. She just loves me and watches out for me forever. Me being the stupid grumpy boy that I am, instead of just accepting her love, started to resent her some for watching me fall into a depression and not having helped me out, or even really noticed. I didn't realize she had her own struggles and I was just really selfish. I didn't realize my resentment or how mean I was until I went to the temple one day pleading for an answer on if it was the right thing to marry her. I was able to see that marriage, while I was holding all those bad feelings, was a terrible idea. Since realizing my inner problems I was able to heal more and let it go.

During most of the summer I have been seeing a therapist. I wanted to talk about having been in a depression and make sure I didn't fall into that trap again. Also how to not let anxiety control my life in school or other aspects. I learned a lot. I learned that when someone imposes a deadline on me, I fight against it for no reason. I really hate deadlines. I learned that I can do little things for my anxiety, like setting my own deadline before the imposed one, and I feel better about it. When that isn't a possibility if I just push through the first bit of my anxiety it goes away. I just need to fight instead of run. It is hard, but I am working on it.

That brings me back to how I am the worst fiance ever. We had set a date and a temple: August 15th, Mount Timpanogus. Since that was a deadline I fought against it for no reason. Mostly have told myself that I just wanted a "yes" answer for my prayers for me to feel good about the decision. Since I was doubting every day, I am not sure if the answer would come anyway.

Pretty much every step of being engaged has been hard for me and therefore killer to Celeste. Like I said, she is a saint. Ring shopping was scary for both of us and I just couldn't find a ring that I thought was what she would love. It took forever and ever for me to buy her the one she has. Little decisions, like who my groomsmen would be, to match her bridesmaids, were hard. I only have two best guy friends, everyone else was just details that I didn't want to think about. She was left almost alone to plan a marriage because I just couldn't handle it and would shut down when I thought about it. When I thought about her, I was fine and happy, but when I thought about marriage, I was just petrified.

The first change to actually bring me on board was making announcements. I was being my annoying self and trying to participate with what I could and at the same time save money. The cost of a wedding really scared me. I have worked really hard to have some savings and no debt, giving it all up for a wedding was really hard, and harder than it should have been for someone I love. When we were working on announcements, like other times before, when I was trying it just wasn't working out. Everything was just meh and not happy. Then after hours of being annoyed, almost giving up, and having had to take an air break outside a few times, I just did it. I stoped being held back by limitations and just made it my own. I am really good at things sometimes and it worked out. (Note - Vistaprint is great if you make the announcement before on Indesign or something, but it is really hard to make it on their site then have it look classy and original.) I did it and I felt better. I felt like marriage was finally possible and I could do it.

I was still searching for an answer from God confirming I was making a good decision and not just being stubborn. While reading the scriptures I found Helaman 14:30 "for behold, ye are free; ye are permitted to act for yourselves; for behold, God hath given unto you a knowledge and he hath made you free." The feeling that I received with it was that Heavenly Father trusted me. I was still not sure if that was a yes, but it would be fine if that was my decision.

Seeing that therapist was really good for me. He loaned me a book called "Saving Your Marriage Before It Starts", which helped me understand that a lot of the things I was scared about between Celeste and my relationship were just normal differences between men and women. Also that a lot of the things that I was doing in the relationship were hurtful to her. I was able to open up better and even argue better, to be productive rather than just hurtful. At least I thought so. I need to do a refresher, but it helped.

I am going to take a minute and complain about living in Provo. The LDS culture is sometimes overwhelming. Marriage is talked about too much. I have done it too jokingly to friends, so I cannot complain too much, but it is still too much. Since about two months into dating, every single day till the day we were officially engaged, Celeste has been asked "how long till you are getting married", "has he asked yet", "why are you still with him if he isn't moving forward". People really need to understand that we have our own timing. I am a little behind in most things, but I get there eventually. It hasn't been fair to her to have to have that much stress and pressure every day.

Well I am done with bummer stuff and ready to be hopeful and happy. Celeste has a special power. Whenever she sees me she smiles. It doesn't matter whether she is mad or happy. Every time I walk in there is a smile on her face. That right there cannot be bad.

I have had a negativity problem. I have focused on the little dumb things that aren't perfect instead of the good things that are there. I have been scared because none, seriously almost none, of the things we like are the same. We both make compromises on everything because when she says something or I say something we both do not agree and have to find somewhere in the middle. It has helped us learn how to deal with little arguments, but sometimes left us both feeling like we didn't get what we wanted because we are trying to be nice to the other, with something they didn't care about. Communication is key and at the same time hard. We try so hard not to offend the other.

Getting engaged was harder than expected. I was scared and my creativity low. Also like usual I was afraid to ask for help. When we were in California for the 4th of July I tried. We went to take a ride on the hot air balloon in the Orange County Great Park. It would have been nice to propose in California in a hot air balloon. Well that didn't work out at all. Trying to get there I got lost and circled the park driving for over an hour not being able to find the entrance. They need to make it easier to find. Then when we finally got there, the weather had gotten too windy so they stopped running the balloon only 15 minutes before. I could have taken that as a sign from heaven that getting married was a bad idea, I might have at the moment, I think God just wanted me to be sure.

How I did ask her to marry me is this. We went to the moonlight ride at Sundance. Then we came home. I was super nervous, but eventually I got out the words "going on adventures is fun, but who you come home to is what really matters." Then I proposed. She got the biggest smile and I put a ring on her finger.

Last night I Celeste got out her endowments. I got to be with her at the temple. She was nervous and I could see it. I loved seeing her there and being there for her. I really love that girl.

I am still surprised that I am marrying someone who is afraid of change, and doesn't like technology, but I think we are going to have a great journey together.

Monday, August 5, 2013

The Book of Axe

When I was in elementary school, probably the summer after second or third grade, my mom sent me to Vacation Bible School. I am still not sure why, since I am LDS and this was at some random Christian church. They invited us on the Sunday at the end of the week. We went and it was fun with guitars for the hymns, maybe even drums, but not what I am used to.

One day in class my teach asked us to turn to "The Book of Acts". In my little boy mind I heard "The book of Axe". It never crossed my mind that she didn't say "Axe". I spent the next what seemed like forever looking through my scriptures looking high and low for Axe. I never found it and even after reading all the title pages, and I think I had a LDS quad (Bible, Book of Mormon, D&C and Pearl of Great Price) so it took a while.

When my teacher was walking by, I defeatedly told here I couldn't find the Book of Axe, maybe, because I was Mormon, my Bible was different... I don't think she every thought of it again, but hope I didnt hurt the reputation of the church with that nice lady, telling her my Bible just wasn't the same.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Banana Bread

Sometimes I make Banana Bread. The recipe I have is in Spanish, so here is it translated.

3-4 Bananas
2 Cups Flour
1 Cup Sugar
1/2 Cup Butter
1/4 Cup Milk
2 Eggs
1 1/2 tsp Baking Powder
1/2 tsp Baking Soda
Optional: 1 Cup Chocolate Chips

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit.I usually mix everything but the bananas, then mush them in after.  Add the chocolate chips last. Bake it for 40 minutes.

It is easy and delicious.


Thursday, May 16, 2013

Android Studio Install

Android Studio was announced today. I am going to try it. I am pretty excited, but there was at least one bump along the way.

Android Studio Not Installing

I didn't have Java installed. After installing the JDK I got the error that included, "If you believe you have a JDK installed and it was not properly recognized, simply set an environment variable JAVA_HOME to point to it/" I tried setting the variable, it did nothing.

What it doesn't tell you is you need the 32(x86) bit version of Java not the 64(x64). After re-installing the 32 bit version of Java Android Studio let me install it.

Android Studio Not Opening After Installed

After installing, it wouldn't open, and didn't give any reason why. This helped me, you actually need the environment variable set. I made a variable called "JAVA_HOME" and set it to "C:\Program Files (x86)\Java\jdk1.7.0_21\".



To set a variable click on properties of "Computer", click "System Properties", under the "Advanced Tab" there is a button for "Environment Variables". Just create a new user variable. This was on Windows 8, but it it almost exactly the same on Windows 7.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies

A long time ago on a facebook app I found this recipe.  I decided I should copy it here in case that app every goes away and because it is easier to access. These are super delicious. I don't follow the recipe exactly, I use a big 29 oz can of pumpkin and double the recipe. You you should try them, they are delicious. Also they stay soft for longer than any cookie reasonably should.





Serves: 1-8 Preparation time:  Cooking time:  Dietary guidance: v 

Ingredients


1 c. sugar 
1 c. pumpkin 
1/2 c. oil 
1 egg 

Mix together above ingredients. Sift and add to above: 

2 c. flour 
1/2 tsp. salt 
1 tsp. cinnamon 
2 tsp. baking powder 

Dissolve and add to rest of ingredients: 

1 tsp. soda 
1 tsp. milk 
1 tsp. vanilla 
1 c. chocolate chips 
1/2 c. nuts 


Method

Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Drop on lightly greased cookie sheet. Bake approximately 10 to 12 minutes.

NOTE: Careful not to overcook. Cookies will be soft and moist. 

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Missionary Controlled Blog

This is something I helped someone do the other day so I thought I would let everyone know how to do it. What this does it let you send an email which automatically updates your blog and then even posts it on facebook if you want..
Make a blog
This is a blogger/blogspot tutorial so go to blogger.com and make your blog.

Set it up for email posting
Go to your blogger dashboard, then click the arrow for more options and select "Settings". On the left of the settings page click on "Mobile and email". Last make up a secretWord then select "Public email immediately". From then on you can just send an email to that email address and it will update your blog.


Updating to Facebook
I searched long and hard and found RSS Grafiti. Go to their Facebook App.  Click "Add New Publishing Plan" and name it. Get you blog feed address, by using a link like this: yourblog.blogspot.com/feeds/posts/default .On RSS Grafiti under your new plan click "add new" source and enter that link to your feed.  I suggest changing the "Update Frequency" to "As soon as possible". Lastly click "add new" next to target and select your facebook account. You are now done.





Conclusion
You can now send an email to the secret email address from before, and it will post it to your blog and then update your facebook about it soon after. For missionaries this would make keeping a mission blog to update all your friends super easy. Best part you can even email pictures and they will show up.Go and serve.

Monday, April 15, 2013

Where Does Your Self Worth Come From?

This year I have had a few trials that I ended up learning where I got my self worth from. My worth comes from my relationship with God. When I feel that he approves of me, I am happy. When I feel he does not, I am not. I am so glad that God is where my worth comes from. Why you ask? Because it is easy keep up with your relationship with God, as opposed to other things in life.

I am so happy that my worth does not come from school. I have never been good at school, I will never be good at school. I should have been done with school years ago. I am not, why, because I am terrible at managing my time outside of class. Homework is almost impossible for me to do, and if I ever get behind it is hard to catch back up. I am bad at admitting my problems. I am getting better, but it is still hard. If my self worth was based on school I would have none.

Work is great. I love work. I love going to work each day, getting things done, being a leader, turning off my life and just being there. When I get home, I am home. Work is the best. Currently I get paid enough to live, if I was married as I probably should be, it would be hard, but being a single person my pay is enough. If my self worth was based on work, I would have a lot, not the best ever, but I would be happy.

Having my self worth based on God makes it constant. I know people who their personal worth changes by the hour depending on what they are working on, what grade they got on a test or assignment, or who flirted with them that day. Wow is all I can say to that. It is a roller coaster and makes me anxious. I could never keep up with that. If I had my self worth related based of my relationship I would be on that kind of roller coaster. Relationships are hard. I have never really succeeded at one, not matter how hard I try. I could probably get married right now, but I am not sure if that counts as succeeding until I feel like it is right.

Having my self worth based on being happy with my relationship with God is so easy. I just have to be a good person, and when I mess up (all the time) repent and move on. There are basic commandment (daily prayers, reading scriptures, chastity, tithing, word of wisdom, ten commandments...) and if I follow them, which cans be a trial I will be happy not matter what comes along in life. If I was a hobo and still doing the best I can,  I would still have self worth. How cool is that.

My Heavenly Father (God) love me. He blesses my life every day. He makes me want to be a better man, and therefore makes me a better man. I have a smile on my face and can keep that smile on my face. I often tell people it is impossible to offend me, which it is because my worth is not based on what others think, it is based on what I and my God think of me.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Facebook AutoPost

I am testing a facebook auto-post to see if I can help a friend going on a mission to update all her friends. Let's see if http://www.rssgraffiti.com/ actually works as simply as it says it should.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Windows 8 Start Button

I like most people have felt a little empty not having a start button on the bottom left corner in windows 8. So I made a quick executable that just opens the start menu, then pinned it to my start menu in the leftmost spot. Download it here. (Thank you dropbox public folder.)

You might get some kind of warning, like this one I got from chrome, just click the arrow and keep. If you don't trust me make one yourself using the info below here.


Here is how I made it. I found on line that you can use this code for a Visual Basic script:

set wShell=wscript.createobject("wscript.shell")
wShell.sendkeys "^{ESC}"
Set WshShell = Nothing

Then I found an icon I wanted. I liked this one. Then I downloaded a program called VBSEdit, which has a function to make a vb script into an excectable. (Just use the evaluation version) Then TADA a working button to have there.


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Adverisment

I just found out that when I talk about a product I can make money or something by adding a direct link like the one below. Since Ticonderoga pencils are the only pencils I like to use and have recommended in the past, I wanted to see what this would look like. That is all.


Jumble

I have wanted to post for a while again, just because I want to. So far I have been foiled all to often. Some times I start and just don't know what to say anymore, mostly because I am too tired that my brain turns off. Other times I have my girlfriend or cleaning checks or roommates or something pop up and it makes me put it off.

I want to address my being tired. I am not going to complain like I have wanted to in the past I just wanted to say it. I can function really well when tired because I have had terrible sleeping habits most of my life, most people  don't notice too much when I am tired, because that is just who I am. I usually go from activity to activity using my ADD abilities to keep me awake, because I know as soon as I relax I am done and It will probably take more energy than I have to get me back on track.

That all being said this week I am seriously tired. Yesterday I went to work, and got some things done, but mostly my brain just turned off, and when I wasn't working on something in specific time just disappeared. It is amazing how slow/fast time can go when you don't notice it happening. Then I went to the grocery store. I took an hour there, which felt like five. I got more things than usual, but mostly I just had found a few recipes that I wanted to make for Valentines Day. Tomorrow I plan on waking up early and making breakfast, and then coming home from school and making dinner, while fitting in maybe a ballet and hopefully some homework. I really don't know how I am not going to pass out somewhere along the way, but I will try.

Back on topic, sleeping is hard. There is something wrong with me, that I can be as tired as anyone has ever been, and as soon as I get into bed at night I am wide awake. This phenomenon doesn't happen during the day, I can nap all I want, practically anywhere I want. This is a problem. In the past, and probably still I have had some problems, like I didn't exercise enough in the day or I just like having noise on, which sometimes keeps me up longer than putting me to sleep. Recently I have been doing the noise thing. I don't know what it is, but as soon as the day comes to an end, I don't want to face tomorrow. I don't know why, but that has been keeping me up. I try to drown it out by turning on some show to just fall asleep to, but that doesn't always work. Being afraid of tomorrow every night is not something I am used to. I like my life and I don't know where the fear comes from.

Well I need to get to class and ranting isn't helping. There is homework to be done places to be. I just want to sleep for a week and then I think I will be fine, but sleep is not something that I get to do, even when I have the time.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Life Update

I have wanted to blog for a while now, I just never do it. The other day I almost grumbled when I was grumbly... something about no time, stress from school, and not getting enough sleep... but today I am happy again and just wanted to be a blogger. I enjoy bloggers.

It is my birthday next week. I am going to be 27. That is old. I didn't realize how easy it would be to get old. I am kind of excited to be 27 because I just do better on odd years. I do okay on even years but I have liked all my odd years in my 20s (21,23 and 25) and I have just done okay with my even ones. That sounds strange, but it is kind of true. I actually have a plan for a fun birthday party. I bought some Miracle Berry Tablets (The link is where I got the idea, I got them a bit cheaper on Amazon, yay amazon prime) and I am going to have a tasting party. It should be fun. I just need toy buy some sour things.

Today I got a bunch of emails for free stuff. Last week I went to this web page http://www.freebie-depot.com/birthday-freebie-list/ and signed up for anything near by. I get a few more spam emails per day, but for my birthday it is the best.

I thought I had more to type, but I lost all of my gumption. Goodbye for now.